Chasing after that feeling

I’ve Been trying to practice shapes and lines every day, it got me thinking .. one of my biggest flaws is how I always feel like everything I want to create is above my skill level or how I need something I currently don’t own so I just give up and not do it at all.

I’ve always been a perfectionist, especially when it’s beauty or art related, for example I had a hard time accepting my features since I can’t just spend hours on photoshop to perfect it.

When it came to fashion, I tried to box myself in one style or one idea and it’s whatever majority of the population liked and wore, I wanted to blend in yet I always wanted to be a bit special? But why do I want to be special and is it arrogant to want to feel that?

Sadly, it took me a lot of time to accepted that I can like everything and anything and express that freely and however I want, studying graphic design helped me a lot, there is no public perception or money spend, just me and whatever I wanted to crate and whatever looked pretty to me.

And to my surprise I found almost everything pretty, I might not use or wear this shade/texture/look now but oh how magnificent it would look in the winter. Or how I would like to try every style at least once I don’t mind being all over the place, I don’t need to have a stable style to be authentic or to be me.

It’s not just about style or art though, I feel free to try and explore new hobby’s, new activity’s and meeting new people, everything seems a bit more colorful in my life and oh how thankful I’m to this feeling, I would drown in it if I can.

I just woke up feeling different one day, I could never explain it it’s a feeling you get, like breathing a crisp fresh air after being stuck in corporation building.

Anyway, yah shapes and colors, I hope my lines and circles gets better.